Adele said she was “embarrassed” by her divorce, in an exclusive and extensive interview with Oprah Winfrey.
The star said she felt as if she had “respected” the idea of marriage when she was separated from her husband, Simon Konecki, in 2018.
She added that “horrific anxiety attacks” after the divorce prompted her to adopt an exercise regimen that led to her losing 100lb in two years.
The US Prime-Time Special marks their first TV interview on their new album.
It also saw the star perform a selection of new songs and classic hits at the scenic Griffith Observatory in Los Angeles, in the shadow of the Hollywood sign.
Featuring stars such as Lizzo, James Corden and Melissa McCarthy, the Twilight Concert was the first time Adele’s young son, Angelo, had seen her live.
“It’s the absolute honor of my life, baby, to have you here tonight,” she said.
During the show, the star even helped a local man propose to his girlfriend, Ashley, – the couple with Make You Feel My Love serenaded after the surprised bride said “yes” and burst into tears.
“Thank God she said yes because I did not know who I was going to sing this song next,” Adele laughed.
Broadcasting on CBS in the US, the two-hour special is not currently scheduled for broadcast in the UK. A separate ITV program, An Audience With Adele, hosted by Alan Carr, is set to air on Sunday, November 21st.
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Adele was unafraid of her divorce
“I was obsessed with a nuclear family my whole life because I never came from one,” said the singer, whose father left home when she was just two years old.
“From a very young age [I] we promised that when I had children, we would say together. And I’ve been trying for a really, really long time.
Now 33, Adele said she first noticed that her marriage had broken down when she took a personality test in a glossy magazine.
One of the questions that was asked, “what is something that no one would know about you?”, And she asked her friends, “I really am not happy. I do not live, I just pick along.”
“They were all gasping,” she recalled. “From there, I was like, ‘What am I doing?’ What do I do?
Even though Adele has been with Konecki for eight years, she previously said that the marriage and separation will both take place in 2018.
“I take marriage very seriously … and it seems like I do not now,” she said, reassuringly. “Almost like I did not respect it by getting married and then divorcing so quickly. I’m ashamed because it was so quick.”
Her ex-husband “saved her life”
Adele stressed that she still loved Konecki, even though she was not “in love” with him. The couple still live opposite each other in Los Angeles, and continue to live with their son, Angelo.
She went on to credit Konecki with “saving her life” after she became famous.
“At that time in my life I was so young and I think I had everything in order. I could just go down some dodgy paths and self-destruct, from being so overwhelmed.
“And he came in and was the most stable person I’ve ever had in my life up to that point. Even now, I trust them with my life.”
Adele can not explain where her music comes from
Songs like Hello and Someone Like You have touched millions of people, but Adele has admitted that the power of her music is a mystery to her.
“I do not think I have as a person what my singing is. I draw from elsewhere [and] I do not know how to access it.
“It’s wild because I do not think I’m that deep in real life,” she laughed.
When asked why she revealed so much private information in her texts, Adele stated that she wanted to reassure people who come through similar experiences.
“Music helps me in many situations, and I want to do the same for people … to be reminded that they are not alone.
“There were times when I wrote the record, or I’m listening to something back and it’s like, ‘This might be a little too private.’ [or] three years behind closed doors. So I’m not afraid. “
Adele reconciled with her father before he died
The singer told Winfrey that the “biggest wound” she suffered as a child was the “absolute lack of presence and effort” of her father, Marc Evans.
“I had absolutely zero expectations of anyone because I learned not to have them through my dad,” she said. “He was the reason I was not fully accessible to what it is like to be in a loving, gracious relationship with someone.”
Although separated for many years, the father and daughter have reconciled in the last three years after Evans became seriously ill.
During that time, he admitted that he only listened to her first song, Hometown Glory.
“He never played any of my other music,” she said. “He was like, ‘It’s too painful.’
But the star wanted him to play one of their new songs, To Be Loved, which expressed how his disdain affected his ability to trust other people.
“It was amazing for me and him,” she said. “I mean, he could listen to me sing it, but not say it – we’re very similar to that.”
In the end, she managed to get him to play all of her new albums on Zoom, shortly before he died in April.
“His favorites were all my favorites, which was amazing,” Adele told Winfrey, “and he was proud of me for doing it.
“So it was very, very healing [and] When he died, it was literally as if the wound had been closed.
She was criticized for his weight loss
Adele’s appearance in the last two years has been much speculated after she lost almost 45 kilos during a new training regime.
The star said the transformation was “mainly” about controlling her anxiety.
“I had the most horrible anxiety attacks after I left my marriage,” she explained. “They completely paralyzed me, and made me so confused because I could have no control over my body.”
After realizing that her fear in the gym eased, she started walking every day.
“That really helped me get my mind right,” she said.
Winfrey recalls her own experiences of weight loss, and how some people felt “upset” and “gave up” when they first went on a diet.
Suggesting that she had heard similar comments, Adele replied: “I’m not shocked or even surprised because my body has been objectifying my entire career. I’m either too big or too small; I’m either hot or I’m not.
“But it’s not my job to validate how people feel about their bodies. I feel bad that it made someone terrible about themselves – but that’s not my job. I’m trying to sort out my own life. I can not adding another worry. “
Her new song Hold On could be a “national anthem”
During the concert, Adele released three new songs from her upcoming album, 30 – I Drink Wine, Love Is A Game and Hold On.
Winfrey chose the latter as a highlight, reciting the lyrics: “I’m such a mess / The harder I try, I regress / I’m my worst enemy / Right now I really hate being myself.“
Adele said she often felt this way during her divorce – and her friends would tell her to “stop”.
“It was just trying to keep up with it. It’s a process – the process of a divorce, the process of being a single parent, the process of not seeing your child every day. [It] was not really a plan I had when I became a mom.
Speaking in front of television, Winfrey said she thought the song would be “a national anthem around the world for anyone struggling with something.”
Her son thinks Taylor Swift is the big star
When Adele took her son to see Taylor Swift’s Reputation Stadium Tour in 2018, his jaw dropped.
The six-year-old, he could not believe how many people were on the show, “because he used to come to my stadium shows for rehearsals and it would be empty,” Adele laughed.
But she said Angelo recently got a glimpse of his mother’s real popularity after her latest video premiered on YouTube.
“The other day he was watching the Easy On Me video countdown … and he was like, ‘There were 150,000 people waiting!’ Then he read the comments and he was like, ‘People really love you!’.
“So he’s starting to get it a little bit, but not really.”